GAH I'M SO MAD I JUST DELETED AN ENTIRE POST AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW!!!!
I really miss my mac... husband's computer just isn't the same and it does stuff differently : /
{deep breath}
Ok. . . lets try this again.
Can you believe its August? It seems like just yesterday it was Easter weekend and we'd just driven up from Utah to good ole Spokanski. Where has the summer gone? In two short weeks we'll be heading back down to Utah heat, and school, and a new apartment :) and as sad as we are to be leaving family, it's time for us to go back. We've loved {almost} every minute spent with both of our families, but being with family all the time really starts to cut into 'hubby time' and just our personal family independence... does that make sense? We definitely don't regret coming up for the summer, but we've learned that we really like having our own place to call home, cooking our own meals for just the two three of us and not having to juggle 3 family schedules instead of just our own. Although I'm really nervous for school (weird cause I'm taking a bunch of really fun classes) it'll be SO good to get back into a routine and have something to do every day haha.
Last week we had a Well's Family Reunion!
so.much.fun.
I finally started to feel like an actual part of the family - which was good for me. Not that I didn't feel a part before, just I feel like I'm starting to 'get the hang of' being a Wells. You know?
I also had my eyes opened just a little bit - haha.
3 members of the Wells family are under 4 months and I think it was really good for me to get to catch a glimpse of what being the mother of a newborn is really all about.
It kind of hit me hard though that I really don't know that much about being a mom. I mean I'm the oldest of 9 kids so I've seen my fair share of babies, but I've never spent six months of nights getting up to feed the baby or just being chained to a little person that is helpless and will probably cry a lot.
I would like to clarify, though, that I'm not regretting anything. I love Madeline more than I can even explain right now and I know that love will only grow. I'm simply saying that I didn't realize how much I need to learn and study up on - breast feeding being one of those things.
Confession: nursing kinda not freaks me out, but makes me nervous. There's no doubt in my mind that I want to do it, I know it's best of me and Madeline, but ah! It supposedly hurts a lot, and leaking, and its hard to get the hang of, etc. etc. etc. SO I've started doing a lot of reading, and researching, but I still feel like I don't know that much - maybe because its one of those things you actually have to experience. I don't know.
But I'm totally open to advice to feel free to leave a big ole message for me at the bottom of this post :)
I did, however, make a minor adjustment to my schedule for this fall.
I was previously signed up for drawing {pre-req for Photography} but its a 3 hour class during the evenings, and I just felt like it wasn't the best thing - esp. during the last month of school when she'll be wanting to eat all the time, you know? So I dropped it and replaced it with a class from my all time favorite professor Brother Marsh (my Book of Mormon professor last two semesters) and now Jeremy and I are both in his class all about Joseph Smith. I'm so excited! Jeremy was already signed up for it, and I realized that as long as he's in the class then if I miss class once or twice during the last few weeks of school it'll be ok because Jeremy will be taking notes! Plus we've always wanted to take a class together, and I think I can handle it with out making a total fool out of myself standing next to my ultra perfect husband : /
SO - now I don't have any classes on Monday and only one class (a lab for a lecture earlier in the week) on Fridays. Let me tell you what that means.
The week of Thanksgiving looks like this. Monday - Monday schedule (nothing for me), Tuesday - Friday schedule (good chance my one class will be cancelled), no school the rest of the week and I don't have class the next Monday. So... That means I'll have an entire week and a half off of school starting the Friday before Thanksgiving. So Madeline, I'd like you to come on November 18th - ok :) Mommy would really appreciate it! I know it never happens like that, but with a little help and a lot of prayers maybe she'll be ready by then.
Also {I know this is getting to be a long boring rambling post} but in some quick sad news. I used to have the most beautiful belly button. Perfectly innie but not too big or awkward. The other day, I happened to notice that it is FLAT!!! Oh my goodness! How did this happen??? Soon I will have an outie... but I supposed its worth it because my belly is getting bigger because Madeline is getting bigger and that means that I feel her more often, which I do. And I sure love feeling her :D
I think I've written enough, but seriously - if you're a mom and you have read any good books about adjusting and especially breast feeding, PLEASE let me know :)
kluvyoubye
